hey meba

Baby,

I don't know if I will ever be good enough with words to express everything I feel for you. Sometimes, I feel like my gestures, my little efforts, and the way I care for you might tell you more than my words ever could. But today, I want to try to put my heart into words, because there are some feelings I never want you to doubt.

I want to spend my entire life with you. I know I might be late to be your first love, but there is one thing I wish for with all my heart — I want to be your last. The person you grow old with, the person you come home to, the person whose hand you hold through every beautiful and difficult chapter of your life.

You are, and will always be, the prettiest woman in this entire world to me. Not just because of your beauty, but because of the way you make me feel. There is something about you that makes my heart choose you, again and again, even when my mind is filled with fears and doubts.

I won't lie to you. Sometimes, the thought of your past hurts me. Sometimes, I find myself thinking about things I wish I didn't. But I want you to know that none of those thoughts will ever change the love I already have for you. I am learning to accept that your past is a part of your story, just as mine is a part of mine. What matters to me is the future we choose to build together.

I know I am not a perfect man. Maybe someday you will meet men who seem more successful, more handsome, or better than me in certain ways. But I hope you will always remember the man who genuinely wanted to give you the world. The man who wanted to see you happy, who wanted to stand beside you when life became difficult, and who wanted to love you in ways that made you feel safe and cherished.

I promise to keep becoming a better version of myself. Not just for my own dreams, but for the future I imagine with you. I want to provide you with every happiness I possibly can. I want to be your strength when you feel weak, your comfort when you feel lost, and your biggest supporter when you chase your dreams. I want to celebrate your victories as if they were my own and hold you close when things don't go the way you hoped.

There is something else I want you to understand. My past has made trusting people difficult for me. I have been hurt before, and a part of me is still afraid of experiencing that pain again. But with you, I am choosing to take that risk. I am opening a heart that once learned to protect itself. And I sincerely hope you will never break the trust I am placing in you.

I don't expect you to be perfect. I don't expect us to never fight or never misunderstand each other. I just hope that when things get difficult, we will choose to understand each other instead of walking away. I hope you will reassure me when my fears become overwhelming, just as I promise to listen to you when you need reassurance yourself.

I want a love where we both feel secure. A love where neither of us has to constantly wonder whether we are enough. A love where we choose each other, even on the days when loving feels difficult.

I may not always know the right words to say. I may sometimes overthink, get scared, or struggle to express what is happening inside my heart. But please never mistake my imperfections for a lack of love.

Because I love you. Deeply. Genuinely. From the bottom of my heart.

If life gives me the chance, I want to spend my years making memories with you. I want to see your smile in the morning, hold you during our quiet nights, travel with you, laugh with you over the smallest things, and someday look back at our lives together and feel grateful that we found each other.

I was late to your story, my love, but I hope I get to be there for every chapter that comes next.

You are the woman I want to choose today, tomorrow, and for the rest of my life.